Here goes...

Tonight is a first - a first among a long line of firsts. To be more accurate, it is a long line of re-firsts or new beginnings. I don't know how many times I have tried to start losing weight. I am 25 years old and have been in a weight loss battle my whole life; well, almost my whole life. That is all going to change from here on out. I am no longer in a weight loss battle, but a journey towards attaining good health - not just physical, but mental, emotional, and spiritual health as well. I need to heal my person as a whole and not just the part of me people see and do not like. I need to like all of me...the parts I see, the parts I don't, and the self from which I hide. I'm scared, honestly, but if Ruby from Style Network can face her demons, so can I. I hope. I will do my best to be courageous enough to share all I am going through. Bear with me. It's going to be a very bumpy ride.