I have been away from this blog for a long time. Why? Because after I finished my last post, I lost all control...and all desire for control...and now I am up to 322lbs. I didn't want to share that with you because I was scared. I'm scared of you discovering that I am a failure. I am scared of admitting to myself that I can't hide from my failure. I know who reads this, and I didn't want you to see my mistakes. I only wanted you to see my successes. How fake is that? You don't have to tell me what not to do. Chances are that if I am doing something I shouldn't be doing, I am 100% cognisant of the choice and then I make the choice to ignore it.
Basically, I just have to say "I'm sorry." I will include you all the time. I will be fair and give you the whole story as I know it. Please be patient with me. I will not hide anymore. :o)
"Let he who is without sin cast the first stone ..." (There's nuttin' in MY hands!) I'm with you thru thick and thin; nothing will ever change that.
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